Mahogany Speaking

I am just amazed how much my hair has grown. See I started my dreads back in 05. I am getting close to my 3yrs. I never had hair this long in my life. I know people at work really didn’t like my hair. To this day they wish I go back to the old ways of perming and adding hair weave. I just choose not to. I just love my hair too much. I don’t have to do too much to it. Although it is more stressful for me. I work with the public and I can’t go around looking like and mop head.

Here are a few more pictures of my hair.

Current Mood: Cool

Last night I watched part 1 on CNN’s Being Black in America. I think it was better than I thought it would be. I thought it was going to show a lot of negative stuff about my people. I tell you seeing shows like this is wonderful. I want most American’s to see that all the Blacks are not Drug Dealers, Prostitutes, Bitter, and Lazy. If you want my honest opinion you have to send me an email.. They had interviews with Black in all different situation’s.

I hate to see anyone struggle, then when it comes to my people I want the best for them. It is really hard to be black in American. Everything you try to do positive you have to try 5x’s harder. I can say it is easier for Black Women to get ahead. It is just Americans (some) are still afraid of the Black Man.

We do need to help each other. If it is just some after school program for kids and teenagers. We got to stick together. We have to educate them on the devastation of drugs, sex, and poverty. Although some already know what the cause and effects of them are.

I was raised by my mother and grandmother. I knew my dad and he was a part of my life somewhat. I think I turned out great. It was just some of the things I care not to have lived, but it made me a better person. It is about guidance when raising children. Some of the kids that feel life is hard, cause of the neighborhood. I grew up in what they called (over the tracks) which they think is the ghetto. I was never my hood. I have always been more, cause seeing my mother struggle. I never wanted to be like her.

I plan on watching part 2 tonight. I just hate that I fell asleep before Anderson Cooper came on. I love his show.
Black In America

1. What are your favorite kinds of plant life (plants, flowers, etc)? Why? The Sunflower and Daisy. I think they are beautiful. I feel that  I can connect with them.

Sunflowers’ meanings are warmth and adoration, and they are also thought to be a sign of longevity. Daisy meanings are innocence, loyal love, I’ll never tell, Purity and Beauty.

2. Do you associate any memories with certain things (flowers, objects, etc)? Any you’d care to share?

I only associate the time my ex gave me a rose. I was sick as a dog for a few days. I learned that I am allergic to roses. 

3. By what method do you keep track of your memories (blogs, scrapbooks, etc)? If you don’t do anything to preserve your memories, how do you keep track of them? Does it matter to you?

I mainly keep track in my head. I take pictures and I blog too. I might write some down time to time.

WW #13

WW #13

1.) What material is your favorite for bed sheets? cotton

2.) How often do you masturbate? OMG… Everyday sometimes more in a day….

3.) What takes you the longest to do while showering? (IE shaving, washing hair, etc) Shaving…

4.) What do you think is the right amount of foreplay? Do you spend enough time readying your partner for sex?   With me it doesn’t take much foreplay…  The same goes for him..

5.) Who tends to initiate sex more when you are in a relationship?  Me…

6.) What birth control do you use?  In the beginning it was the shot and condoms. Since we been together for 5 years I trust that he isn’t doing anything (anyone) else.

7.) What is one thing your partner could do in bed that would instantly turn you off?  Dig in his noise, snore real loud, and keep farting…

I was on TAGGED today. On there they have this option about status. Well I choose to use It’s Complicated. I choose to used that for several reasons. I am not looking for another mate. I am still currently conversational with my ex. We even still hang out and do things together. We are back the way we used to be when we were friends. I still love him and still think that maybe just ONE DAY he would be my husband.

I get this note from a guy. He states that it couldn’t be all that complicated in a relationship, cause he feels as if I am beautiful. I respond back, it looks like a relationship, it acts like a relationship, it is a relationship without a title. So I was thinking the man got the point and would just leave me alone. I guess he wanted to fill me in on how he felt. Here is the note…

Ok. then its not a relationship. Its a serigant situations. Your a fool….lol Im good. I cant associate with a weak sister sorry. hope ur situation works out. Im single anyways and you cant do me any good. take care.

I was getting a kick out of what he was saying to me. I believe he isn’t the first one to tell me I was a fool for hanging on to this man. I feel that it is my choice though. I have the right to hang on to anything I want to. I love this man. This man has never laid a hand on me. This man has also been there for me, when my family and friends wasn’t. So I still love him for many different reasons. We were friends when we met and we are going to remain that way until the end of time.

If I wanted to date someone else I am pretty sure I can. I am also pretty sure it will be someone that isn’t on the internet, 4000 miles away either.

I am a strong woman. I have been through hell and back over the last 20 years of my life. I been through abuse, sexual abuse, alcohol, and verbal. I had my share of Trial and Tribulations. So no one, not even a horny man on the net can tell me I am weak.

I am the Diamond that never Tarnishes, ya heard….:P

Current Mood: Playful

1. Are your farts;
a. Silent but deadly
b. All sound, no fury
c. Loud and stinky

I  would have to say it depends so I will go with C

2. Have you ever farted in front of a lover? Who was the 1st one to do it? How did they or you handle it.

Yes I have. My ex did the same thing. We just blame it on one another. LOL

3. Have you ever farted and tried to blame someone else? Who and did you get away with it?

Yes like above answer.
4. What food triggers you?

Raw Veggies and Milk

5. Varts (Vaginal Farts) Scary, or an indication of a good time being had by all?

A good time had by all… I think mine can get so LOUD when  I am over excited….

Bonus (as in optional): When you do fart with someone in your bed, do you cover their head with the sheet and hold them under?

NO…

Current Mood: Cool & Esctatic & Flirtatious & Happy & Playful

This day and age, Swingers, Bisexual’s, Homosexuals are at a full time high. You have also the married couples that are in an OPEN marriage. You start to wonder is majority of everyone living their sexual freedom. I don’t judge one bit. I have lived the life of both open and monogamous relationships. I used to kid with my ex about the Polyamorous relationship. He thought the idea was kind cool. This relationship is based of LOVE and TRUST. The bond between husband, wife, and outsiders that are close. It is similar to Swinging yet, in is more than sex. It is a relationship… You know a wife might have a girl friend (if she is bi) and also have a boyfriend. The same goes for the husband, he might have more than one girlfriend or boyfriend. The men are rarely intimate with other males, unless it is a homosexual relationship. I was looking in depth of this. I am going to list a few types of this relationship. I got this info from Wikipedia.

Types of Polyamorous Realtionships

Forms of polyamory include:

• Polyfidelity, which involves multiple romantic relationships with sexual contact restricted to specific partners in a group (which may include all members of that group).
• Sub-relationships, which distinguish between “primary” and “secondary” relationships (e.g. most open marriages).
• Polygamy (polygyny and polyandry), in which one person marries several spouses (who may or may not be married to, or have romantic relationships with, one another).
• Group relationships and group marriage, in which all consider themselves associated to one another, popularized to some extent by Robert A. Heinlein (in novels such as Stranger in a Strange Land, Time Enough For Love, Friday, and The Moon Is a Harsh Mistress). Also works by Robert Rimmer, and Starhawk in her books The Fifth Sacred Thing (1993) and Walking to Mercury (1997).
• Networks of interconnecting relationships, where a particular person may have relationships of varying degrees of importance with various people.
• Mono/poly relationships, where one partner is monogamous but agrees to the other having outside relationships.

So-called “geometric” arrangements, which are described by the number of people involved and their relationship connections. Examples include “triads” and “quads”, along with “V” and “N” geometries. A triad could be either a V or a triangle. (See: Terminology within polyamory.

Polyamory as a lifestyle

Separate from polyamory as a philosophical basis for relationship, are the practical ways in which people who live a polyamorous lifestyle arrange their lives, the issues they face, and how these compare to those living a monogamous lifestyle.

Values

• Fidelity and loyalty
• Trust, honesty, dignity and respect
• Mutual support
• Communication and negotiation
• Non-possessiveness

This is how I view sexual freedom. I know that some of you all might think it is crazy. I know some of you might think I am going to hell.  I just feel sometimes people look outside their current relationship to seek other means of being fulfilled. When you are in a relationship like this, there is really no time or room for cheating.  You have everything put on the table.

Also in this type of relationship a bisexual person could have the best of both worlds. You have a few or more partners that you can trust not to go else where.  Hey what can I say…

The key to Sexual Freedom is know your status.  Practice safe sex at all times.

Float My Boat

1. Have you ever been on a cruise?  Yes
2. Do you own a gravy boat?  No
3. You’ve become the proud owner of a brand new boat.What do you name your vessel?  MD Forever
4. What is your favourite movie about boats? WoW… Titanic, The Perfect Storm, Posiden (msp)
5. Do you get sea sick easily? Nope, but the water seems like it is telling me to jump in it…

Manic Monday #126

What’s your favorite beach in the world? Virginia Beach

What’s the next country you want to visit? Africa

What one thing are you craving today?  Sex

Current Mood: Happy

I joined a new Blog Meme. I had to cause I am a big lover of Old School Music.
This week was about Break Up songs. My 1st love dumped me that morning before school to Guy’s Goodbye Love.

Current Mood: Esctatic

I tell you one thing I love Gay Men. It is something about them that makes you feel welcomed. My friend’s father Birthday was today. He had a party that I really had a good time going to. I been in such a funk the last couple of days.

When I got home today from work I took a pill to chill out too.  I seemed that it wasn’t going to work for me. So my friend’s dad came by to ask me for some music that I played last week at the party I had at my house.  He told me to come to his house tonight cause he was going to have a Birthday Party. Well I tell you all, I had such a great time.

I don’t drink gin but with the pills I took earlier, WHOA I feel good.  I for one can’t stand Gin, yet that was the only thing that he had.  I am so surprised I am able to type this entry.

They was playing some of my favorite music( HOUSE). I am a house music fanatic.  The only time I get to listen to it is when I am at home and when I go to Gay clubs.  So I felt at home when I was able to dance and have a great time. I forgot all about the Trouble of this week.

One of the guys Tim didn’t know I had it in me. He was like you have to go to some of the clubs with us some nights. I was like, sure just let me know.  The only thing about Gay clubs here anyway. There aren’t enough women there. It is mostly the men that goes to them regularly.  Then when it is women there they are mostly butch or very manly. I like women to look like women. I know that I am a girly girl and I like the women to be the same.

Let’s hope I can make it to work @ 6am… LOL

I think this was one of the weeks I have to put into the history books. After all is said and done.. I am burning it from my memory. I can’t even say I am glad it is Friday, I am working until Tuesday coming. People that know me, I don’t like crap and I am really some what Bi-Polar. I can flip is two or three minutes. So I am always trying to keep my composure.

My mother still doesn’t understand that working with the public is more or a headache and tiring than working for the Post Office or a Plant. Talking and speaking to everyone that is within 5 feet of you drains all your being.

It started with Tuesday as you all know with the Western Union chick. I still haven’t gotten over that yet. Then I seen her again today. I just walked away and avoided her all together. I am not about to loose my job over an Immigrant.

Then Wednesday wasn’t so bad until I saw next week Schedule. I am working two weekends in a row. I have already told Pino time after time. I plan to do things every other weekend, so I need off. I think she wants me to to flip on her again. I can’t that why I am so frustrated, I can’t voice myself.

Thursday this woman called me on my cell and curse me out. She said I have been calling her house leaving nasty messages. I never called her. At the time she said I called I was at work. I can not use the phone while at work either. Unless I am on break and I talked to MC while I was on break. So she said she is going to call the cops on me. I didn’t know that cell phone lines cross too. I was like the things you are saying was never said from me. Me and MC had a great conversation. I also don’t say those kind of things to people anyway. She insist that the call came from me cause my name showed up on her caller id.

Then today me and MC had a discussion about having Female friends. Well for one I don’t like when he has them. The past has prove the fact of why I don’t like him to have them. He tries to tell me about my male friends. He said he don’t care if I have them, he just thinks I am or going to sleep with them. I try to tell him, I ain’t like him. You know in the past he slept with a couple of his friend girls ( hell I was a friend girl). Then he also said he wouldn’t mine sleeping with one of OUR mutual friends. A friend from the internet is coming down to see another friend and SHE wants to see him to. I know that me and him aren’t in a relationship, but we still DEAL with one another. So I DON’T trust the situation.

I am not mad that he has friend girls. I just feel like if you are so much in love with me, and you want me in your life forever, SHOW RESPECT… I know if the table was turned he would be pissed at me. I am not even pissed, just cautions.

I just hope that tomorrow will be a great day and also go by fast….. I need a day off and a break.. LOL

1. What was the last meal that caused you to be ill?   Steak and Shrimp from Chili’s
2. Are there any places you never dine anymore because of a bad experience hours after the meal? Yes I don’t go to Chili’s
3. What’s your prescription for dealing with a food-caused illness? Water and Ginger Ale…
4. When friends tell you about coming down with food-caused illnesses, do you avoid the places they name, or do you figure it’s a dice-roll wherever you go? I just don’t go..
5. After numerous citations, a very, very popular restaurant that you’re quite fond of is shut down by the health department until it can get everything up to code. When the health department gives the restaurant the o.k. to reopen, do you go? It’s a maybe

Current Mood: Cool

If you could enter the witness protection program, but only you, no contact with family or friends, would you? Why or why not? It depends on what I am running from.

Assuming you had to go: I would just go if I had too.

Where would you move to? It would be nice to go to Canada or California…

What would you choose for your new name?  Daisy Beverly Blossom

How would you reinvent yourself? As a eccentric hippy…

Today was one of those days. A day that I haven’t had in a very long time. Today I was really going to go ethnic on some Mexican women.  I kept my composure though. I thank the Lord that I did. This is really getting out of hand. I know when we go to foreign countries, we have to learn to speak their language. So why is it so freaking hard for some of the Mexicans to do the same.

Let me tell you the events of my day…

We were a little short handed today at work. So I was doing the bookkeeping, service center, and running a register.  Well these Mexican women came in to sent money to Mexico. They kept motioning their hands. I didn’t know what in the hell was wrong. So I just looked at them funny.  So I asked them did they need help. They never said anything.  So I walked off.  Well as I get back to doing my work.  One of the ladies yelled out. So I looked at her and again asked them did they need any help.   They grabbed the Western Union form. So I gives them a pen. The whole time one of the ladies was rolling her eyes at me.  I was already frustrated at the fact they were in there.  We always have some type of problem when they come in there to send the money.

I get the form and I can’t read one bit of it. They would mess up on the letter and then write over it.  I can’t read chicken scratch.  So I asked one of them what the letter was. They didn’t say anything and the other lady still rolling her eyes at me.  So my manager came over and asked them too. They looked at her like she was about crazy too. So I say fuck it and she has one more time and I am out the door. (I was going to take off my work shirt and beat the crap out of that lady.)

I manage just to put in what I thought it was.  Well it was sent through and the heffa had a nerve to start speaking Spanish and I knew what she was saying.  So I said, When I was asking you the questions you couldn’t answer me so I thought what you wrote was correct. I gets pissed and my manager finished it for me. I wasn’t about to change shyt.

I feel like this, you come into this country. Why don’t you learn the language? Why don’t you learn to live the way we live. It is get outrageous, I am so freaking tired of it.  Don’t get me wrong, I don’t have the people, I just dislike some of the ways.  I am not a freaking mind reader.

Heck they can never get the right stuff when it comes to WIC either. I have stopped doing them all together.

So you see that was my day..  I am better now since I am at home.